Math Shmath...

Ugh Jack! An uneventful morning at work has led me not to want to study today, but I must... I have a few more practice exams that I would like to get done. Might just help the score, eh? I found another website that states good scores. They say at least a 700 in the math and 550 in the verbal. I'm close in the math with my 650, but my highest verbal was about 470. Here's me worrying again, right?

I ventured to the library yesterday. Cannot remember if I told you that already. I have less than 100 pages left in the book that I rechecked out. Plan to finish it today and maybe start another one. I have two other Jodi Picoult books waiting to be read and I really like her books so I'm hoping these ones are as good too! I should slowly be cleaning the apartment for the party this weekend, but I haven't felt that motivation yet. I will probably do some laundry today, although without Ayden home there isn't a whole lot that needs to get done. But I have a few items of mine that I want to wear this week that need to get washed.

Potatoes on the grill tonight! I think Jay might even try out the new grill. He's been getting home from work a little early these past couple of weeks. Not like hours upon hours or anything, but like a half hour or hour early here and there. Definitely not working late like he used to. Don't know if that is because they don't have the work (which I highly doubt because Jay is always talking about how far behind they are) but more than likely due to the fact that his manager said they will not be working any overtime if he (the manager) wasn't going to be getting paid for it. It's a family run business with lots of issues, but Jay likes it so all is well. Hopefully this fall JT will be back because I know Jay misses him, lol! They still talk on a daily basis... Jay is actually on the phone more than me! How does that work!

Even later this afternoon now... and I finished my book. The ending kind of left me wanting more, but oh well. I am in such a blah mood right now. I feel like doing nothing and just being depressed, but I'm not really depressed. I'm super stoked for this weekend and want it to come faster (even if that means one less week of summer vacation) but I cannot make myself study anymore. I'm meeting up with a friend tonight to study some more. She was orginally going to take the test next Monday, but there was a mix up when she scheduled her exam time and it got moved to the 22nd now. Gives her extra time, which I wish I had, but actually not. A small part of me wishes for more time, but that more time would just be to put off the test. I'm so ready to just go in and get it over with. Thursday's post will be both full of joy that the test is over and possible saddness (depending on how well I did). So what did I spent my afternoon doing... watching Tru Calling on TV. Anyone remember that show? I watched it when it was originally aired and kind of liked it. Today was some sort of marathon and I watched 2 1/2 episodes and successfully did not study during that time. But I DID do some studying. I've been working more on my verbal quizzes. I could not get myself to do any math today. Hurts the brain when you do too much thinking! Getting sick of me complaining about this stupid test yet? Because that is what it really is... just some stupid test! Just think, in two days no more complaining about it, just how badly I did and the fact that I will not be able to get into grad school and I will have to pay another $140 to take the dang thing over again. Talk about being Ms. Pessimistic today, eh? Sorry, just not really in all that good of a mood.

I miss Ayden! And to think I thought all this grandparent time would be good for him! Okay, so I know that it is and that he is having tons of fun and probably not missing me like I am missing him, but dude, I need him back to give me some purpose, lol... true mom attitude.

ARGH! Just not in a good mood right now... need some mood altering drugs... anyone have any available? Maybe a cocktail of koolaid, has lots of sugar in it! Maybe that is what I am in need of, sugar, yum! Lol... CIAO FOR ME!
LOVE ME!

GRE this Thursday?! What am I going to do?!

'Just BELIEVE'

Can it really be as simple as that? I think so... I KNOW SO!

Oh Jack! And so the countdown begins... 2 days until T-day... test day! Well, not counting today that is. I took some more practice quizzes last night and on one of the math ones that I thought I was doing pretty well on, I got more than half wrong. I couldn't believe it. Do they really think we are supposed to remember all of this? I couldn't believe it! But I have faith... just need to keep the positive thinking going, right? The power of a positive mind, isn't that what they say? Or something along those lines.

I got ahold of my friend who is coming to Ayden's party last night and we talked for a good hour. It was definitely good to catch up. Her and her husband and son are coming up Saturday night and spending the night with us before the party and are going to help us get ready. Are we starting a tradition here or something because she did the same thing last year. But I am super stoked and will gladly take the help if they are offering it. Plus it will give us more time to hang out! YEAH!

This week is going to be filled with ups and downs... today, tomorrow, and Wednesday equal work and studying... Thursday morning test time and afternoon work... night time... RELAXATION AND DECOMPRESSION, maybe a night at the bar to soothe away my depression of how badly I did. Lol, yeah okay because I don't drink. Isn't that what the 'normal' person would do though? I was surprised to find out that two of my friends smoke. Well one just picked it up and I was definitely bummed to hear that (maybe she will quit after her wedding) and another one said she just does sometimes when she goes out to the bars. But she said the last time she didn't so I was proud of her. Even though I can't tell them to smoke or not, I definitely don't condone it and would prefer them not to. At least they've never done it around me.

So anyways, back to my week... Friday morning start cleaning the apartment, afternoon a visit with a friend I haven't seen in almost a year (so excited), Friday night, grocery shopping for Ayden's party. Saturday morning, more cleaning if it needs to be done, afternoon, family reunion, night, hang with my friend and start decorating for the party. Sunday morning, get food ready for party and finish decorating, afternoon (please pray for nice weather and no rain!) Ayden's party, night, clean up and RELAX AGAIN and relish that Ayden is home for another week before off to Grandma Wendy's house. Oh, and play with all of Ayden's new gifts. Back to normal schedule on Monday! Sound busy enough for you? Does for me!

And next weekend we get to go to the Milwaukee zoo, pray for no rain then too because last year it was rainy and kind of crappy out. But at least most of the animals were out. We want sunshine and warmth, but not too hot that the animals are all inside. And this time my mom is driving so I don't have to freak about Jay's driving the whole time. Lol, yes I am totally like that. I've vented enough about how I don't like his driving a lot of the time. I'm learning to just look out the passenger window or shut my eyes and deal with it. He's gotten moderately better, but I still don't like it. I have a Jay driving complex... Would you blame me though?

I didn't sleep all that well last night. Don't know why though, but had horrible dreams about the GRE and not doing so well. Great, right? Can't tell what I was thinking about before sleeping at all now can we?

Most of today, well okay half of today (the part where I was home) was spent on the computer doing more practice tests. I took a full one (minus the writing section, don't know if I should be practicing those or not) and got halfway decent scores. I was surprised with my math score and kind of bummed with my verbal score. I looked up what some okay scores were and have decided that if I can get a 1200 combined score I will be okay with that. I would like to get higher, but right now I'm averaging 1100 and like I said, not doing so hot on my verbal section. But I've been trying to find what are acceptable scores for the test and really haven't come up with anything conclusive. Some say higher than the 50th percentile is good and others are saying 75th percentile. I searched UWSPs website and couldn't find anything specific. Everyone seems to think that I will do just fine. They keep saying that I'm so smart and I don't need to worry... but they haven't been seeing my scores. Today I ran into the word pettifogging... seriously, does anyone know what that means? I didn't even know it was a word!

The other half of my day was spent relaxing the brain muscles in front of the TV, but then I decided to make a quick run to the library and get some books. I would rather be reading during my 'relaxation' time than watching TV and I found some good Jodi Picoult books that I haven't read. I also picked up the one that I took back last week that I hadn't finished yet. Still on the 7 day rental list and today I could have gotten it without paying the $1 for it because the lady totally forgot to ask for it, but I'm not like that and gave it to her. I would have totally felt guilty for not paying for it. And besides, I had the change anyways. Always good to get rid of some of my change. Even though I'm poor enough the way it is.

Lasagna for supper and then probably going to read for a while. John and Kate Plus 8 is on, only for a half hour tonight, an hour of new episodes next week though, YEAH! And then more reading. I've already invested a little over two hours of practice tests today and think I need to rest. If I keep on studying TOO much I'll go bananas when I have to sit down in front of the computer on Thursday morning. I will want to do anything BUT that. More studying and practicing tests tomorrow.

CIAO! LOVE ME!

Already August?!

The one nice thing I like about living in our apartments is the 'treasures' you find when someone discards something. Thus far, we've found a patio chair (of which we have since gotten rid of because we got our patio set now) and just the other day, someone was moving and put a gas grill out by the dumpster. Usually, when someone is getting rid of something it is broken. Well, this grill is by no means broken. Jay picked it up and brought it back to the garage to take a closer look at it and the ignitor thing doesn't work, but you can use one of those lighter things for that just as easily. It's a little dirty, but nothing a good cleaning can't solve. New, I'm sure this thing cost $70-80 if not more. Now, we already have a charcoal grill we got for about $30 last summer (which Jay loves using, we've grilled out probably almost a dozen times already this summer), but this one we can use on a moments notice and not have to wait for the charcoal to warm up. And all for free! As cooking illiterate that I am, I may even be able to handle this thing, lol!

I'm feeling more and more confident about the GRE as time goes on and I study more and more. Last night I learned 40 of 150 flashcards that I had made. YEAH ME! Another 40 today and that will be 80. Actually, it is a lot easier than I thought it would be. I am kind of worried about the time that I may spend studying this weekend because I will not be at home, but if I put a few minutes in here and there and there and here I should still be good. I still have Monday thru Wednesday next week and Ayden will not be at home with us so that will allot me even more extra time. I know I should have studied more and earlier, but summer is supposed to be for having fun. I cannot wait for it to be over though so that I can have these last few weeks off and enjoy them to the fullest without the thought of the impending GRE in the back of my head. Plus I will have two good books to read.

Breaking Dawn comes out on Saturday! Although I would love to run out and get it and dive right into, I cannot... My mom is getting it for me for my birthday. Good and bad... bad because I cannot go and get it right away and read read read, but good because I cannot go and get it right away and spend my time reading and not studying for the GRE. Lol, I know, I'm funny! But I'm still super anxious to go and read it.

Jay and I got into a bit of an arguement last night. Well, it was more than just a bit of one, I was pretty pissed off at him for a while. Of course centered around our 'issue' but we got over it in the end and all is well. At least for the time being. Sometimes I don't know what to do about it... but I know that if we are meant to be we will work through it and everything will be fine in the end. And well that is how it worked out last night. He made that salmon for supper and boy was it YUMMY! Honestly, I didn't think that it would taste very good at all, but it turned out fantastic. I didn't eat a whole lot though because I didn't want to get sick.

I need to pack today. Got all of the laundry done yesterday, but of course it's a never ending job because the hamper has clothes in it already. But I don't mind doing laundry now because our washer and dryer is in our closet. I didn't really mind doing it at the old place either, even though we did have to go outside and walk to the laundry room and pay for it. It got done faster then because we could do three loads at once, but it also sucked in the winter lugging it out into the cold and what not. And then I always had to bring Ayden with me when I was home alone. That was fine until the cold weather came in. Then I usually didn't do laundry unless Jay was home. I didn't mind leaving him alone in the house if I was going to get the mail, but getting the laundry usually took a few minutes and you never know what could happen in those few minutes. Paranoid, maybe, but at least he's still safe.

Speaking of Ayden, he was pretty crabby this morning after getting up. First we pretty much had to pry him out of bed because he didn't want to get up and then he pretty much refused to get dressed. Off went the cartoons until he got his clothes on and then finally by the time that we were headed out the door for daycare his mood flipped around. He was excited that today was water day though which was a good thing. Tire him out, then tell him he doesn't have to take a nap today, and then he will sleep the whole trip to Chilton and be okay for the purse party. Well at least I hope so. Otherwise I might have to lock him upstairs with Casey, lol.

Guess what?! I got a text message from my friend who I was talking about yesterday that I hadn't heard from in a while and was wondering if she was coming to Ayden's party... and she says that her, her husband, and son are coming and they want to get a hotel room to spend the night so we can hang out a little more. I thought that was so cool! Like I may have mentioned, we don't get to see each other very often. The last time we saw each other was at her son's birthday party back in March or April and before that was Ayden's b-day party the August before. So, if they do come up earlier, I am definitely excited about it! She helped set up for Ayden's party last year and it was so much fun. And this year his son is older and mobile. I can't wait to see them!

The end of Baby Borrowers was on last night and it was kind of funny to see that none of the couples stayed together after the 'experiment'. Nothing like having a family is fast forward to ruin someone's relationship. But at least they now know semi what it is like to have children. Right? Lol, I still think the show was a joke.

(Written Saturday) I never did finish my posting for Thursday. I did not work very long as my boss had the day off and I had finished what work she did leave me already on Wednesday. I made sure the last few things were done and then headed home to get some packing done. After I picked Ayden up from daycare I told him that he didn’t need to take a nap because we were going to be going by Grandma Wendy’s house later. The afternoon went pretty well, but he did get a little antsy before it was time to leave and kept asking if we could leave yet. I hadn’t planned to leave until around 4pm.

Jay got home around 3:30pm and we got into a pretty big argument right before I was about to leave. I couldn’t believe him and what it was about. I thought we had sorted everything out the night before and then he goes and brings it all up again and changes his mind on everything. I was irate to say the least, but I guess we got over it before I left. I was still a little miffed on the way home, but whatever. I didn’t dwell on it because I was headed off to a purse party. I was super stoked and Ayden was just happy that we had left. The traffic home wasn’t all that bad. I ran into cars here and there, but that is what I love about Hwy 10, it’s hardly ever busy. I thought I would run into more traffic once I got into Appleton because I hit it right around 5pm, but even that wasn’t horrible like I thought it would be.

The purse party was a big success. My sister sold enough to be able to get four purses at half the price I paid for two. I spent way more than I had intended, but I guess that that was okay. I totally love my new purses and Ayden even sort of helped pick them out. I ended up with two new purses, a new wallet and a key chain holder thingy that Ayden picked out. It’s definitely not the one that I would have picked, but I bought it because he picked it out and really liked it. A ton of people came which was good too. Ayden was pretty good for the most of it. Alexis came and he played with her for a little while. I think everyone was pretty much gone by like 8:30 and then Ayden helped the host lady put all the purses into her truck. He was ever so talkative then. It was cute!

On Friday Ayden and I chilled at my mom’s house for the first half the day. We helped with laundry, picked beans, went to Columbia park and ‘fished’ and climbed the tower. Oh that stupid tower! I knew that I shouldn’t have climbed it because of course my legs are killing me today. But thanks to Ayden we were up and down in probably under five minutes. That would do it to ya, lol! Then we had lunch and played outside for a while before I couldn’t keep us there any longer. Ayden kept asking when we were going to go by Grandma Michele’s house. So off we went!

Yesterday afternoon we didn’t do a whole lot. We played outside some at Jay’s parents and inside. Kept a low profile and just relaxed. I have been unable to get any studying done this weekend thus far. Good thing I will have all day Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday after work to study before my test. I tried taking some practice ones tonight, but my brain is just not into right now. I am tired… don’t know why I even decided to do this. I guess because I thought that if I do it tonight then I won’t have to waste valuable study time tomorrow night to write. And I like doing this so I thought I might as well since my computer was already on.

Today, Saturday (even though I know I am posting this on Sunday) was a pretty good day as well. This morning, my mom, sister and I went to Kaukana to try on dress. Well, just Emily and I had to try on our dresses for my cousin’s wedding. And great news, both of ours fit perfect. Well, they each need to be hemmed up, but other than that it’s great! Couldn’t have been better… I told my mom that it must be a lucky wedding because the brides dress fit her perfect as well. Now how often does that happen?! I am so excited for the wedding. This will be my fifth wedding that I’ve stood up in. Two from when I was young and my godmother and then godfather got married (or maybe it was the other way around, don’t remember which came first) and then one for another cousin and then a friend, and now this cousin. LOVE IT! So, just need to make an appointment about two months before the wedding to get it hemmed up and all should be set to go!

That didn’t take very long. After I got home, I played outside with Ayden for a while. He was practice hitting a baseball that I was pitching to him (which I might add with little to no accuracy to wear I was throwing, lol), but even with my bad pitches Ayden was doing pretty good. After lunch I told Ayden that he had to rest on the couch for a while and he ended up falling asleep for a good two hours. I snuck a short nap in there too, probably 45 minutes. And then after his nap, Gerald was home from work and we decided to take the boat out. We ventured to a new lake today, Long Lake. Pretty decent, but not all that big. We decided to do some fishing and because I have my fishing license this year, I was able to fish. We did okay. Ayden even caught a fish, set the hook, and reeled it in all by himself. He was so proud. We stayed out there kind of long and Ayden was getting kind of antsy towards the end, which I could understand. After we got home, it was a quick supper, quick wash off in the tub, and then right to bed. I could hear him playing before, but it’s been quiet for the last couple of minutes so it makes me think that he has fallen asleep.

Despite the fact that I’ve not slept in my bed the last two nights, I have to say that I’ve slept pretty well. This time I brought my own pillows along and remembered my ‘rain maker’ (I have a nature sounds machine that I listen to at night, well just to the sound of rain because I am conditioned to it and cannot sleep in total silence anymore) and I’ve drifted off to dream land quite fast I might add which is not usually normal for me. I was surprised to learn though that a lot of my friends sleep with some sort of background noise as well… ie: a fan or what not. I am not as crazy as I thought. Or maybe we are all just crazy, lol!

Tomorrow I am going to head back to Point alone. I’d like to leave before lunch probably so I can use the afternoon to do some more studying, but we will see how that goes. Ayden knows that he staying here and seems okay with it. He also knows that in a few days he will be going camping with Grandpa and Grandma and Steven so I think that he is looking forward to that as well. Come Thursday night, I will be so wanting to see him again. Well, I will before then as well, but like I’ve mentioned before (I think) I will be really grateful to have those three extra days of peace and quiet to really get some studying done. I’m feeling more and more confident each time I take a practice quiz, but I haven’t really looked at any of the example essay structures and am worried the most about those. Seriously, why do we have to write something? I can’t remember if we had to write something for the ACTs or not. That was so long ago.

I’ve been having some pretty weird/good dreams lately. At least I think I can say good. I don’t know. Sometimes I wonder if our dreams are really trying to tell us something or if they are just based on our current worries and/or thoughts before we go to bed. I’ve heard/read many different theories on dreams and don’t know what I quite believe yet. Sometimes I go through phases where I don’t remember my dreams at all and other times I remember almost all of the details. Just another thing to add to the list of my crazy behaviors. Although I know that I am not alone on this.

That’s all for now, although I know I will add more tomorrow (really today, Sunday) before I post this. CIAO! LOVE ME!

Sunday now… back at home. Actually got home around noon today and haven’t done much since then. I sat down and watched a movie from 1-4pm, waste of time, eh? Well, kind of and yet not really. I needed to just relax a little before I jumped into the studying. I just got done taking two practice tests with not so much luck. As excited as I was yesterday about getting better scores and thinking I am going to do half way decent on the test, I am even more so down today. L I did find out when two of my friends are taking the test, both the week after me. At least they have a little more time. I wish I had more time, lol, but doesn’t everyone. This verbal stuff is still kicking me in the butt!

Ayden said he didn’t want me to leave today, but he didn’t cry when I left. He knew that he would be staying for a couple of days and seemed fine with it. My drive home was pretty uneventful which was a good thing. A little more busy than I would have liked it to be, but nothing I can do about that. At least it wasn’t rush hour traffic the whole way.

Currently storming out right now, probably shouldn’t be on the computer, but I just unplugged it so I should be okay. Running on battery power until the storm passes through, or until my battery on my computer drains… which ever comes first. I didn’t know that we were supposed to get bad weather today, but apparently. As long as it doesn’t last that long. Not that I don’t like bad weather.

Jay and I did some grocery shopping today, well we really didn’t need a whole lot. And I saw Breaking Dawn at Walmart and so wanted to pick it up and buy it, but I knew that I couldn’t because I am getting it for my birthday. Plus, if I did buy it I would want to sit down and read it right away and that would take away from my study time. As I’ve said so many times before. But we did get some sweet corn from this road side stand and it was SOOOO GOOD!!! First taste of sweet corn this year and I can’t wait for the next taste. Yummy! I get to attend two corn roasts this year!

Maybe more later… CIAO! LOVE ME!

All Consuming GRE! :(

Jack- For some reason yesterday I was just really tired and didn't feel like doing a whole lot. As you could probably tell from my post because it was fairly short compared to normal. I took a nice long nap with Ayden yesterday and I think it only made me more tired. But it was nice to lay down. I had orginally planned on using that time for studying, but I could hardly keep my eyes open. Hopefully the same thing doesn't happen again today.

My mood lately hasn't been all that peppy either. And I'm thinking it's because of this whole GRE thing. I know it's been a constant source of gripe for me these past couple of days, but I'm seriously worried about this test. Will it just be $140 down the drain or can I pull of a good enough score to get into grad school. This is infantesimally (sp?) worse than the ACTs! I keep doing more and more practice questions and after a while last night I was getting a little higher scores. I've been primarily concentrating on the math right now. I thougth that was going to be an easy go for me because I'm okay in math, but apparently not as good as I need to be. The more I worked on it last night, the easier it became. Okay, that's a step in the right direction. But now what about the verbal and writing section? I think I can do okay on the fill in the blank and reading comprehension because I've been doing okay on those. It's the analogies and antonyms that I'm worried about because half the words I don't even know! Actually it is probably more than half. So today's concentration is going to be on vocab words. Wish me luck! I know, I just have to believe in myself and it will make things better. Okay, just keep telling yourself that Ashley! I CAN DO THIS, I WILL DO THIS, I WILL SUCCEED! I WILL GET INTO GRAD SCHOOL! How's that for positive thinking?!

We did a bit of grocery shopping last night and Jay was going to make our salmon for supper, but he neglected to see that he needed to marinate the fish for an hour before cooking it and we didn't get home until after 5:30 so we decided to save the fish for tonight and just had pizza last night. I hope the fish turns out good. I've never had salmon before so I'm curious to see what it will taste like. Ayden was very well behaved last night. While we were at the store, he was kind of anxious to get done. Mostly he wanted to go do the prize game. And wouldn't you know it, Jay won him a monkey. I was surprised... but this morning Ayden told me that he wanted to give the monkey to someone else because he didn't like it anymore. Okay, whatever you say little dude.

As Ayden and I were leaving daycare yesterday he took a bit of a tumble. Actually, it was more of a bit, he fell down the stairs. Luckily it was only about 7 stairs and he ended up fine, but sent a shock through me and the three teachers upstairs. No tears and it was as if it didn't even happen once we got into the car. What a kid, I tell ya. Thank goodness he was okay though, it looked like it kind of hurt. Not even a bruise! Tomorrow is water day and Ayden keeps telling me that we cannot forget his stuff (I did one time). He's excited! We actually haven't been to the pool in about two weeks now. Crazy, I know! And we probably won't be going for another two weeks. Today is not supposed to be all that hot and tomorrow we are leaving to go home. And after that Ayden won't be back in Point until next Sunday for his b-day party. Luckily, I will be able to see him before then, he just won't be at our house. He will be camping with Grandma and Grandpa.

Okay, so I am at work and have just been delegated a new task. Faxing out press releases... okay fine with me, except, I just tried three faxes with three different numbers and none of them worked! I got busy/no response answers for all of them and I followed the fax directions as written! Argh, I will try again in a little while, but seriously, it should have worked. I haven't faxed a whole lot, but usually when I do it works. I don't know what to do. Well okay, I can ask for help and that is what I will end up doing if the next time they don't go through. It's nothing imperative, but it should go out today. Speaking of work, it's been going pretty good these last few days, but today and tomorrow are going to be kind of slow. My boss is on vacation and she left me a few things to do, but nothing that will keep me busy for a super long time. I'm okay with that, but like I said, I would rather have something to do. The only upside is that I can leave a little earlier to get more studying done.

On kind of a sour note, I still haven't talked to my best friend. And she still hasn't talked to me. I don't really want it to continue like this, but should I give in. Wouldn't that make it seem like I was in the wrong? Was I in the wrong? Or should I wait a few more weeks and see how things go. In the last year or so we really haven't gone more than a week or two at the most without talking and that was probably because of just being busy. We used to go a month or more without talking after I moved to Point, but it wasn't because we were 'fighting' but just because our paths didn't cross. We weren't any less close because of it, it just meant we had more to catch up on the next time we talked. Blogger buddies (if I in fact do have any) any suggestions? If I should talk to her, how do I approach what she kept doing to me? I don't want to act like it didn't happen for fear of starting up again and it was kind of rude. This is in no way the same as putting someone on hold to answer another call. That I'm okay with, but then you usually get off the line with one of the two people. Texting while talking is completely different! It's the same as IMing on the computer and talking on the phone, another thing I don't like, but have been lucky enough to not have to deal with in the recent months. No wonder our elders say that we are getting ruder and ruder, it's true. Lol, but enough about that stuff. Like I said a few posts ago, I think, this whole situation kind of depresses me. I don't like dwelling on it too long.

I'm thinking about taking a semi 'trip' next Friday afternoon to go and visit Lee. It's been about a year since our last visit, I can't believe it's been that long, but Jay is not so high up on the whole idea. I don't need his permission to go, but I don't want to go with him totally hating me for it and it to cause a fight. He seemed half way okay with the idea last week, but I never did completely make up my mind on the whole thing either.

This just in... FAX SENT! Yes, I did get it to work, simply needed to add a 1 before the area code! Must have been implied because the directions do not state that. But they went through! Yeah for me! Lol, I know getting excited over the littlest things.

A bit of a credit scare the other day. We recieved a bill in the mail for one of Jay's credit cards. This being a credit card with a $0 balance on and which we haven't used in over a year. I know, probably should have cancelled it, but had it around for a just in case thing. Well, got a bill for $11 that was an international purchase. Uh-oh!!! Credit card fraud! Immediately contacted the credit card company and cancelled the card. They did not make us pay the balance, well why would they, it wasn't our purchase and explained how people will charge little amounts at first and see what happens and if nothing happens, charge bigger things later on. It's a good thing we caught it and cancelled the card right away.

Afternoon now... decided to let Ayden stay up today and not even take a 'rest'. After we got home from daycare we made a countdown calendar to his birthday party. That was a lot of fun. He also has been helping me with the laundry. Fourth load started, one more to go. I don't remember doing any laundry last week, so that would explain why there is so much this week, and my dad even washed Ayden's clothes from his visit so I didn't even have to do those. That would have probably added another load. Currently Ayden is supposed to be laying down on the couch for a little while, but since he was being so good and helpful I told him that he could get up and play. He is playing and watching Lilo and Stitch. He knows that he needs to be a good boy tonight though or its an early bed time.

I need to pack tomorrow for our venture home. My sister is having a purse party tomorrow night, might have mentioned that before... and I am super excited. I have never been to one before and I hope to find a purse that fits my needs that isn't too expensive. Since I have to bring Ayden along I told him that he could help me pick one out. I need more of a 'mommy bag' than a purse. I take so much stuff along with me the way it is my purse right now is just not big enough. You know all that good stuff you need for kids, but don't exactly need a diaper bag. Yeah, that's what I need. Speaking of packing for tomorrow, I haven't even unpacked Ayden's bag from my dad's yet. Our apartment definitely looks lived in again with Ayden home. I like it like that... toys everywhere, shoes not put away, kitchen a mess, etc... even though I am a neat freak by heart, the lived in look makes it feel more like a home.

I recieved some advice from a friend today on the issue I am currently dealing with my other friend. They stated that maybe I need to be a little more assertive and let her know how I am feeling. Well didn't I already do that already? And what did I recieve in return, nada! They also said that because we've been friends for so long it would be kind of stupid to let something little like this come between us and tear us apart. I agree... but also admit that I know I am being childish about this whole thing as well. Another thing that they said was that maybe my blogging about it is a way to let her know how I feel without actually telling her (but that is assuming she reads this and I honestly don't know) but in all reality, that is not the case. Sure, at times I write as if someone is actually reading this, but a lot of times I don't even think about that aspect and just pour my heart out. As I stated when I started this blog, it's more of a way for me to just vent than for other people to know about my life. The upside is that people can read and get to know more about me and my daily trials and tribulations. Is that good? Maybe, maybe not. I do censor certain things, but most of the time not, as you can probably tell.

CIAO! LOVE ME!

Terrific Tuesday!

Jack- Good news and bad news. Bad new first, isn't what that everyone says? I wasted $10 on miniDVDs that I didn't need, but good news, it was only $10. Even better news, I got Ayden's powerpoint to work on the TV and for only an extra $7... I can get the sound to work as well! Okay, so I didn't really want to spend $17 to get it onto the TV if I could have done it for free on the computer, but it looks so much cooler on the TV. I was super stoked last night to get it working. It was just too bad that I didn't find out how to do this before I bought the miniDVDs. I suppose that at some point they will get used and/or sold to someone who can use them. If you are reading this and know of anyone who could use some miniDVDs let me know! I'd rather someone get some use out of them than them just sitting at our place for however long.

I slept really good last night. I didn't think I was that tired, but apparently I was. I didn't go to bed all that early either so maybe that was why.

So, I've been trying to get a hold of a friend of mine for the past couple of weeks and haven't gotten any responses from her. I know that she is supposed to be moving soon, so maybe that is why, but usually she responds to my text messages and I haven't gotten anything yet. And she hasn't RSVP'd to Ayden's party. It's not that I expect her to come, but I just was trying to some sort of head count to know about food quantities. I would also like to catch up with her too because we haven't talked in a while.

Not so much in the mood to blog right now so I thought I would just finish this post up and be done with it for tonight. Trying to get some more studying done. Although, getting more and more depressed because my scores are not getting any higher. Ugh!

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