{where have i been?}

It is certainly taking more motivation to get anything done these days as all I want to do is try and be comfortable... which is near impossible right now. I'll take it. The end is in sight. I'll get there. In the mean time, there is a lot that I want to get done and probably a few things that need to get done that just aren't. I'm lacking motivation on just about every front. I don't cook for my family anymore. Hell, I hardly ever cook for my family, haha! But seriously, mine and Ayden's weekend meals have typically been the same for the last couple of weeks and even the during the week ones that Jay has been making are less than stellar. I'm ready for life to return to 'normal' per say when it comes to a nightly routine. Right now Jay is still helping coach wrestling, Ayden has wrestling practice two nights a week, Jay has bowling one night a week, I don't get home until late, and Jay is gone most of Saturday and pretty useless on Sundays. I'm ready for wrestling to be over, our weekends to be ours again since I feel like we went from a super busy summer schedule of weekends to wedding, to fall super busy weekends, to winter with wrestling... etc etc etc... I want just a month or so of weekends where my ENTIRE family is home with nothing going on. No sporting events, no parties, no helping anyone, no work, etc... just laziness and/or getting stuff done around the house. I'll get maybe one or two and then Jay will have to start working weekends again. It sucks. I hate it. I hate it more now because I'm hormonal. I can say that because I'm pregnant. Blame it on the baby, ha! In any case, I'm just ready for winter and all of these extras to be over. I'm done. And while we're at it, I want my body back. Lol, just had to add that in there, you know, in case you didn't already know that.

Overall, life has been bearable lately. Nothing overly exciting going on. You know, besides continuing to grow a human in my belly. Still working full time. Ready for maternity leave. It's a struggle to get up each morning now and get ready for work. I'm so over it. I love seeing my patients, don't get me wrong. But I'm tired all of the time. It's a long day. Jay and Ayden are great. I feel like I've been saying the same things over and over in my posts lately. I probably have been. Ain't much exciting going on because I haven't been doing much. I work, I come home, I go to bed, I repeat. On the weekends I don't shower, stay in sweats and an oversized sweatshirt, and don't leave the house unless absolutely necessary and then when I do, I rarely change. It's winter, people can't seen my unwashed hair under a hat or my sweatshirt under my coat and I'm wearing boots. Okay, so maybe I change from sweats to yoga pants before venturing out. And when I venture out, it's really only to Walmart. I mean come on, it's just Walmart. Haha! Actually, I'd go just about anywhere in my get up because I honestly just don't care what people think at this point just so long as I'm comfortable. My cute maternity clothes... yeah, their cute and becoming increasingly uncomfortable. Ugh, how many more weeks of work do I have left?! Too many!

I was quite productive last weekend though. I made some curtains for the baby's room, framed some prints, got the bedding out of the bags and started to put it on the bed, started sorting some clothes. Baby's room is a complete disaster right now, but we've got time yet, right?! Less time than yesterday (yeah) and more time than tomorrow (boo). Trying to add some humor in there somewhere. Each day that passes brings me one day closer to having baby in my arms and each day that passes means baby has had that one extra day to grow. I'm a part of a pregnancy group on facebook and through the grace of the women in this group, I've really learned to cherish each and every day that baby is still cooking, despite any discomfort that I may be feeling. You all know me well enough that I don't like to sugarcoat things. I'm not the type of person who is going to sit here and say 'oh yes, I'm feeling great today at 32 weeks pregnant' when that is not the truth, but just because I may not be enjoying it, doesn't mean I don't cherish it or want it or that I somehow take it for granted because I know that being able to get pregnant, stay pregnant, and have a healthy pregnancy is really a blessing. That being said, like I mentioned before, it doesn't mean I have to actually enjoy it or pretend like I do. Prior to this pregnancy, I was all about having three or four kids. Now... now I think we'll be okay with just two. At least at this point in time I don't forsee myself wanting to go through this again.

On a different somewhat brighter note... we've had two consecutive days of good weather. And by good weather I mean upper 30s, low 40s. I realize that that is just above freezing, but people, it feels GREAT outside and that does wonders for my mood! Unfortunately, the weather people are calling for some more craptastic winter icy crap tomorrow and then another colder spell next week, but even two good days helps! Plus, we are nearing the end of February which means we are closer to March and in March we will hopefully have consistent good days. And people, best part of all is that it is still light out when I leave work at 5pm! Still daylight! Sun still shining! No headlights needed! Try to wipe that smile off of my face, ha! It's the little things that matter to this preggo right now. The little things!

And P.S. I just counted and there are only 36 more work days until I start my maternity leave. (I've decided my last day will be the Friday before my due date.) Totally do-able, right?! 

CIAO! LOVE ME!