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....is usually good news. It's been a couple of days since I've blogged and I feel the need to write, but not a whole lot of new stuff has been going on around here that is really blog worthy. Last week had to have been one of the LONGEST week I've had in a long time. The week just seemed to drag no matter what I did. I'm pretty fed up with winter right now. I know that it wouldn't bother me so much if I didn't have such a long commute to work that made me drive in the crap we've been having almost every day now. And I know that I've chosen to have my job farther from home than some people, so I really have nothing to complain about. It just gets tiring after awhile. My drive itself on a good weather day is long enough (45 minutes) and so in bad weather it just makes the drive take forever and it increases my stress level... particularly since I do not have the greatest vehicle to be driving such distances in when the weather is uncooperative. Thank goodness my employer has been and continues to be fabulous when it comes to leaving early when the weather starts to get bad. I know I've said it before and I will continue to say it, even though my drive may be long, I've been blessed with some of the best co-workers known to man. That is definitely one thing that puts everything in perspective for me because I could have a very long drive and have an employer who could care less about that and the weather and hold it against me if I didn't come in or if I left early. Granted, because the majority of the patients that I am dealing with are elderly, when the weather does get really bad, they don't come in either. (Most of the time that is.)

Just ready for spring... for a number of reasons. No more snow. Days are lighter longer (although I'm already starting to notice that). Warmer weather. Baby time. Just overall better mood when the majority of these things occur.

Last week marked three months until baby's due date. Of course that doesn't actually mean anything as the baby is going to come when he is good and ready, but it is still exciting to see how much time has already passed in this pregnancy. I remember being three months in and thinking I'd never make it to the end and that given my state of horrible all day sickness it was just going to overall suck bananas the ENTIRE time. It still does suck bananas at times, that's for certain, but remember my last post, I'm trying to chin up these days! Trying to is the key word. It's definitely easier sometimes than it is others.

Last week was my first official week back to working full time. I worked full time for the majority of my externship (minus the pay) and it felt a lot easier than what I'm doing now, haha! I also wasn't seven months pregnant either and I was leaving an hour earlier at the end of the day so it wasn't as late when I get home at night. Factoring everything into the equation, can you blame me for thinking the week took forever and that I've wanted nothing more than just to sleep when I get home at night. Some nights I feel like Ayden is only getting 65% of the mommy that I could/should be. I know that he is getting older now and doesn't want as much hang on mommy time or 'need' mommy time as he did in the past, but I don't want him to feel like he is getting the shaft either right now. Every child deserves their parents devoted attention throughout the course of the day. That course of the day happens to fall at the end of the day for us. I certainly spend time with him at the end of the day when I get home asking him how his day went and so on, but then I am just so exhausted that I am often curled up in bed even before him. He certainly continues to be a trooper though.

That is definitely the pit of working full time. I know that at this point in our lives I kind of need to work full time in order to continue to help pay off our exorbitant amount of student loans and other bills and that the option of being a stay at home mom with the new baby would not only be feasible financially, it would not be physically or emotionally the right thing for our family either, as I NEED to work, at least part time. I enjoyed working part time and maybe will be able to again at some point. Right now though, it's full time. And despite it having some pits, we make the best out of it for our family.  

I got my hair chopped and highlighted over the weekend. I was super excited about it because it had been since WAY before the wedding since I got it cut last. I think my last major cut was prior to us moving... the last time I had this long of hair was back in October 2011 and then sometime between then and January 2012 I got it cut shorter, with it being the shortest by April 2012. Since then I have been steadily growing it out for the wedding and now... now it was time to get it cut again. I thought maybe I'd wait until after the baby was born, but I couldn't. Even three months is a long time when you want a hair cut. I'm didn't go super short. But the all one length long hair needed to go. I love changing up my hair and I was at a point where I needed some change. Just something to make me feel a little better. And... I am IN LOVE with how it turned out! It was just the change that I was looking for! Not to mention, it takes me less than half the time to comb it out in the morning as well which my arms are oh so thankful for! 

Our weekend sort of flew by. In some ways that was a plus as each day that passes brings me one day closer to meeting the tiny man; however, it also means we are that much closer to starting another work week. And people, as much as I do love my job (because I do), it's getting a little harder each and every day to enjoy being there when you feel uncomfortable. Lately I've had some days where I just feel huge and other days where I'm only feeling just big. Ayden and I chilled out on Saturday by ourselves as Jay was at a wrestling tournament. We spent some time outside with Drake where I did some shoveling. I'm having such a hard time reigning in how much I am doing at any given time because the shoveling really took a toll on my back. I think hauling the laundry up and down the stairs didn't help either and by the afternoon I was pretty immobile on the couch for the remainder of the day.

On Sunday I went to Appleton for a few hours with Victoria for lunch and some baby clothes shopping. I was supposed to meet up with a friend that I went to school with whom I haven't see in forever, but her little girls got sick so we needed to reschedule and I didn't want to go alone and it just so happened that Victoria wasn't busy and joined me. I was super happy because I knew that sitting in the house all day was just going to make my mood worse. After we got home, Jay and I headed out to my grandparent's house (where Ayden already was with my dad) for some homemade ice cream. And it was yummy!

Let's be honest here, there really isn't anything better than homemade ice cream and homemade hot fudge at your grandparent's house.

We got home and I was unfortunately upstairs laying down shortly before 7pm as I was just so uncomfortable. I actually fell asleep pretty early and managed to sleep the majority of the night (minus a few trips to the bathroom), but it felt good. I don't want to jinx it, but so far the actual sleeping part hasn't gotten too uncomfortable, although I know that my pregnancy pillow definitely helps with that. Oh how I miss sleeping on my stomach, haha! Soon enough... soon enough!

CIAO! LOVE ME!