Procrastination at it's BEST!

Jack, In the computer lab waiting for my next class to start. I really should be working on my lesson plan and in fact I do have it sitting out right in front of me. It's crying to be typed up and and worked on, but the enthusiasm is kind of lacking right now. I think it's partly because I am worried that I will do bad on it. When talking with my supervisor yesterday she said that the typical first lesson plan will take about three reviews before it is 'perfected' but I want to be one of the smart people who doesn't need three reviews. That's me, always striving for the best, right?! In any case, the actual lesson plan isn't due until 10am Sunday morning, but she said she would like some ideas by Friday at least. That way we have something to talk about at our meeting. Well, being the case that we will actually start clinic on Monday like planned. I keep flucuating between nervous and excited. Plus, since I am writing up the first lesson plan that means that I will be the 'lead teacher' on the first day of clinic. I met with my partner yesterday to go over how we wanted to proceed and we both have a lot of concepts that we would like to cover, but we are unsure of how to do that. Well, not idea wise, but do we just jump right in and go with them or are we supposed to work on something else first? We also know what both of our clients need to work on, but like I said, how do we approach that? Am I supposed to know this stuff already? We had to make up lesson plans and what not last year and I was good with that, but we weren't actually doing therapy. I didn't make those lesson plans with the intention of beginning therapy. I guess our main concern right now is how to get the ball rolling and then we can go from there. Like I said, we both have quite a few ideas on what to work on.

I had every intention of going to bed early last night, but unfortunately was up until around 11pm. I stayed awake to watch Will and Grace at 10 and then Jay came into the bedroom and started talking to me. At this point I was already half asleep, but when I decided to turn the TV off at 10:30, I was no longer tired. After about 10 minutes of tossing and turning, I turned the TV back on and was asleep probably 15 minutes later. The joys of having SLEEP on your TV. Well, it is probably on most televisions these days. I cannot remember though if I turned the TV off and turned my 'rain' on or if I just let the TV go off by itself and somehow turned my rain on. Guess I was really tired. Maybe I will try and go to bed early tonight? Probably not though...

Got some news yesterday on the possibility of moving. Turned out that the apartments that I had thought were the ones that Jay and JT's friend lived in were not really the ones. He lived on the other side of the road down a little farther and truth be told, those are better apartments. Actually, they are duplexes and there are only four of them in a little culdesac. They look really nice on the outside so I can only imagine how they look on the inside. According to JT, pretty nice. Anywhoo, JT provided us with some more info... there is no big corp that owns the duplexes, just some guy and he only owns two of the four and he rents on a month to month contract. He also said that he usually only puts a for rent sign out when something is for rent. Aaron (the friend who lives in one right now) said he would keep his eye out if anything came available. As for our current situation right now... Jay read our rental agreement and after the initial year, it becomes a month to month contract with a 60 day notice of moving out. It also states on there though that we cannot move out in the months of Nov-Feb and/or will have to pay for something or another if we do. Because we are now on a month to month contract I do not know if that still applies, but that would kind of suck. Given the fact that there are no duplexes currently available I am not going to worry about it, but with my luck something would come available during that time. At least for now I know the situation and will not worry about moving anytime soon. That's okay though, because I truly like where we are living. Knock on the fake wood desk I am at... we haven't even had really any noise issues with our neighbors lately! :)

Jay is planning on going home this weekend (JT may FINALLY go with him) to do some hunting and possibly get JT's boat and bring it back with him/them. He had every intention of bringing Ayde home with him and taking him hunting and giving me some alone time. I was all excited for that until I realized that no can do. Ayden had soccer Saturday morning and I really don't want him to miss it, even if he doesn't play. And I just found out that Alexis's birthday party is on Saturday. Wendy did send us an invitation, but to the wrong address so we did not get it. I've had Alexis's gift for a couple of weeks now and really wanted to go to her party, but then again just wanted to stay home for the weekend as well. Right now the weather isn't looking too good for Saturday (50/50 chance of rain and storms) so we might not even have soccer. If there is soccer Ayden and I will go, go to Mickey D's for lunch if he plays good, and then head off to my dad's for Alexis's party. We will also probably come home that night as well, because then I will have Sunday to finalize my lesson plan. Don't really know right now.

Okay, seriously now... I am going to go work on my lesson plan, well maybe after checking Facebook, lol! Until Later... CIAO! LOVE ME!

Just Another Day

Jack- it's just another day in paradise today. If I think positive things will be positive. The power of positive thought, right? Not a whole lot went down today worth blogging about... well probably, but I'm sort of in a tired funk right now and really just want to lay in bed and go to sleep. However, I need to take a few notes and get a head start on my lesson plan for Monday (hopefully).

I cut Jay's hair tonight and then cut Ayden's and I have an appointment to get my hair cut and highlighted on Thursday. New changes going down, lol. I'm not getting anything drastic done to my hair, just a trim. I've been growing my hair out for about a year and a half now and in no way want it too short. I've just started to be able to pull it back decent.

Ayden and I worked on some worksheets tonight. He was doing really good... We did matching concepts, same and different, sizes, what doesn't belong, etc... He kept wanting to do more because I gave him a sticker for each sheet he did. That kept him a little motivated. Right now he is watching Lion King in his bed.

Kinda not feeling this whole blogging thing tonight... CIAO! LOVE ME!

Two Months!

Hey Jack! We have a new pet at our house... Nemo the goldfish which Jay won at the local carnvial yesterday. Jay said that we almost had four or five goldfish as Ayden had some pretty good aim, unfortunately the ball ended up bouncing out at the last second. In either case... Nemo has a new home with us, forever how long he decides to live. We've had fish before. I've had a few betas at a couple years ago we had a whole tank system set up in Ayden's room with even a little shark. Those fish didn't last too long, but the shark did and so did the bottom feeder. I wonder why, despite the pet store person saying the shark wouldn't kill the other fish. Hmm...

We did have fun at the carnival though. Ayden and I rode the ferris wheel and right after we got on he told me that we had to keep our arms in the air. I couldn't believe that he wanted to do that and that he did that at Bay Beach (because their ferris wheel is much bigger than the one we went on), but never the less, we kept our arms up the whole time. He also rode the race cars and a little train. I think he had the most fun going through the fun house though. I went through it with him the first time and then he went through twice afterwards by himself. We probably spent a good $35 while there, but it was worth it, even though we didn't stay super long. And of course we played the duck game. What parent doesn't let their child play the duck game (even though you get sorely ripped off).

PRSION BREAK IS ON TONIGHT! I get my weekly does of Wentworth Miller, and John and Kate Plus 8 is on, but I have to DVR that because it is on the same time as Prison Break. I'd DVR Prison Break, but we don't get our local channels through the sattelite so no can do. I am destined to do some textbook reading tonight as well, but we will see how that goes. I would really like to get Ayden outside to kick the ball around a little bit, but right now the weather is kind of crummy and icky cold (the way it is looking to be for the rest of the week as well).

My classes went well today too. Second class for two of my classes, whereas last week I had two classes three times already. Niether lectured a whole lot which was good seeing that they are an hour and 15 minutes long each. I get very ADD like after the first 50 minutes. I don't know how I ever made it through block scheduling my senior year in high school. Or how my brother and sister did it all four years. Technically my brother is still doing it. He's a junior this year! I cannot believe it!!! And he has his license! That means this year he considers taking the ACTs and where and what we might do after graduation. My mom doesn't see him going to college, but maybe some tech school. I don't know anymore. I used to say probably not college, but he's had a girlfriend for over a year now and I don't know what her plans are so just maybe. I'd say if she plans to go on to college there is more of a chance he might go with her. But then again, I could be completely wrong. Don't really know my brother all that well. And it's not by choice, more of the fact that we don't live together anymore and are not as close as my sister and I.

Speaking of my sister, I need to call the dress place to make appointments for us to get our dresses altered. They said to call 2 months in advance and today is exactly two months. The bride called a week or two ago and couldn't get in for her fit until only 5 weeks before the wedding. Okay, so she fits into her dress pretty perfectly, but what if that weren't the case? I would be worried they wouldn't be able to get the alterations done in time. My sister and I only need our dresses hemmed up, so hopefully we can get in at a halfway decent time. We'll see what they say though. Later now, and I called the dress place and got an appointment for my sister and myself on the 27th to get our dresses fit for alterations. That should be plenty of time. Like I stated before, the wedding is in exactly two months from today... I'm excited!!! This will be my third wedding (well that I have stood up in) as an adult per say. I've been in two when I was younger- for some reason I think I may have stated this before, so bare with me please- and well, it's more fun when you are older and can remember it.

And thus far, I've loved all the dresses that I've had to wear. Still have them, don't really know what to do with them right now, but that's okay. I like to look at them because I still think they are pretty. I could try to sell them as prom dresses or something, but it would be kind of hard for someone else to fit into them as perfect as me because they were altered for my body. But who knows? Anywhoo, point being, I love standing up in weddings and this one will be tons of fun as well. Especially because four of us get along really well. I'm not saying we don't get along with the fifth person, but I also can't rule out any lingering tension. Because I don't really know her (despite the fact that I'm like second or third or whatever cousins with her) I try to stay neutral on the position...

Ayden is currently building a 'carnival' with his geo tracks. He loves those things and I love the imagination he has right now. To be so young and innocent again... I'd better have more boys in the future, but we have all the boy toys! I sometimes wonder how Jay would have been had we had a girl. Because of the situation we were in I can see him not being as hands on, but then again, I might be totally wrong. Maybe he would be more protective? He probably wouldn't be so rough and tumbly with a girl. Him and Ayden 'wrestle' all the time. Did I mention that at some point it is probably inevitable that Ayden wrestles? I will not make him if he doesn't want to (Jay's brother Steven doesn't wrestle), but being that Jay was very into wrestling and his dad is the coach... it's in the blood! I have seen PreK wrestlers before and they are too cute! But from our current soccer experience I don't know how Ayden would handle that?

I suppose since Ayden is occupied right now I should go and try and get some reading done. Speech and Voice Science here I come! Or should it be Abnormal Psychology or even Social Psychology? What about Common Diseases? Oh the choices I have right now... although on a serious note, I'm actually intrigued by the last three choices so it might not be such bad reading after all. CIAO! LOVE ME!

Soccer: Week 1... A Bust

Jack... we had soccer today, well Ayden had soccer today. The day started off pretty early as Ayden decided to get up at 6:45am (earlies he has gotten up in weeks!). Don't know why it was so early as he didn't exactly go to bed early last night, but in any case, he was up. Soccer didn't start until 10:45am so we lounged around the house until then cleaning and watching a few morning cartoons. Well, I cleaned and Jay and Ayden watched cartoons.

When it was time to leave Ayden was really excited and I thought we were going to have a good time. I even told him about the carnival rides and if he played good then we could go there afterwards. They seperated the kids into their teams and at first things were going pretty good. His coach seems really nice and really in tune with younger kids. He had the kids dribbling the ball around and practicing a few things and all was going good. Ayden was even excited to see Seth on his team. They started to play a dribbling game and Ayden seemed like he was having fun, but then all of a sudden he kicked the ball and it went past the coach (the object was to 'kick the coach') and he came running at full speed towards Jay and I with tears in his eyes. He got so upset and said he wanted to go home because he kept losing. I think he thought because sometime when he tried to kick the ball at the coach it didn't exactly go where he wanted it to.

Thus started the next half hour of trying to get him to participate again and bribing him with McDonalds if he would go and play with his new friends. There were a few times where he got back out there and attempted a few things, but the first sign at things going wrong he was running in our direction again crying. I had no idea that he was so painfully shy. I tried to keep him going at it and even went out onto the field with him. But alas, about 10 minutes before the end of the practice, I had had enough and it was either he get out there and play with his friends or we are leaving... no rides and no McDonalds. Now, I'm sure I wasn't in the right by 'making' him play when it was obviously 'painful' for him, but by this point I had tried all the reasoning I could and nothing was working. Well, he didn't like the fact that we were no longer going to ride rides or go to Mickey D's and cried the whole way home. To bed it was and about 10 minutes later he was asleep. Tired maybe?!

We've resolved to practice some at home to get him a little more accoustomed to what is going to happen next week. We've talked to him about the jersey he is going to get and have decided that we will make it a weekly thing to go to his place of choice to eat afterwards if he plays like a big boy. You should have seen some of the other little kids there. They were all for it and my little guy looked like I was putting him through torture. Who knows, maybe he just isn't ready for sports yet. I pray that next week goes a little better, but I won't make him play if he absolutely doesn't want to. We will just sit on the sidelines and watch then. I paid for it, I am going to get at least that much out of it and maybe he will slowly want to start to play. Time will tell...

The rest of the day was spent at the house. Ayden slept until 2pm and then we had lunch. Aftewards we played outside for a little while. We also painted some pictures tonight with some water paints and played hide and seek. And now Ayden and Jay are playing dominoes with some Jonny Tractor ones and then it is bed time. We have decided to hit up the carnival tomorrow if Ayden is in a good mood. He knows that he needs to behave in order to go.

I thought about doing some homework today, but passed on that. Really don't have any homework more as textbook reading. And we all know that that isn't any fun. Lol! But I did actually read an article for my social psych class and highlighted phrases in it. I know, crazy right? I already miss my three days weekends. Sometimes I wish that circumstances were right so I could be a stay at home mom and spend all my time with Ayden because he is so much fun and other times I am glad to get 'away' for a little while because I think that everyone needs a little alone time, even if that be sitting in class.

I finally got a letter from Lee today, even though he won't get the letter that I wrote saying I was wondering why he hadn't written in so long (just not in such nice terms). He really didn't have a good excuse, but it was a letter none the less. Updated me on what's been going on in his life, well sort of. It was good to finally hear from him and see how everything is working out for him right now. He's got a lot on his plate.

I was watching the movie Flight 93 before and it brought back so many memories. I currently have it paused because Ayden wanted to play with me and I wanted to watch the rest of it. Love that pause button... but in any case, I wanted to cry. I've only seen parts of the movie before, but I remember my mom telling me that it was good. Back to watching it now, as Ayden just got into bed...

CIAO! LOVE ME!

Fun Fridays

Jack... It's been another insightful day when it comes to clinic. I had my first meeting with my supervisor and partner today to discuss our clients for this semester. As of right now, we have two boys, with the possibility of it being 5 boys and 1 girl during a 45 minute session. All in the ages of 3-4. Six preschoolers and we are actually supposed to get something done? Are they serious? Well, it has been done before, I guess... like 10 years ago and the clinic director did say that she thought we could handle it. Am I up for the challenge? OF COURSE! :) I think this is going to be great fun this semester and honestly, I am hoping for all six children. The possibilities are endless! And, as it turns out, the slot we will be during therapy in and the weekly meeting time with my supervisor fits nice and snug into my schedule! I had to switch one hour of work to a different time slot, but that is still okay. Ayden's daycare and everything else is still peachy keen! That was my biggest concern, but I'm a little more relaxed about it now. YEAH! Week one of classes over and I'm not completely insane either! Good or bad? You decide, lol!

After I pick up Ayden today I am going to go try and find this apartment place Jay was talking about last night. JT was telling him about this place his friend lives in right now over in Whiting. Technically Stevens Point because Whiting doesn't have addresses (at least I don't think so)... anyways, I guess they are about the same size as ours, but with the bedrooms upstairs and a basement and they cost less. JT said they are pretty nice (as he's seen them before) and cheaper! I would love cheaper, but it'd have to be up to par with what we have now for me to move again. I really love our place right now and so I am not going to get too excited about it right now. I just want to drive past and get a sense of the place and area and look of the outside. It's not too far from campus. Definitely further than we are now, but I don't know. Like I said, I will see how it looks later this afternoon when I drive past. Wish me luck! Well, by the time I post this, I will have already driven past and will probably tell you all about what I saw...

Tonight. It is almost 7:30pm and Jay just got home from work. Good because he doesn't have to go into work tomorrow. Bad because now he's drained from working all day and doesn't want to do anything. But at least one of us did something this week. Okay, so I went to work, but I didn't have anything really to do while there. Got paid for being there I guess. I can't wait for another couple of weeks when the ETP classes start again because then it gets interesting and I get to do a bunch of different stuff. Of course my boss is sort of impartial to new classes starting because that only brings in more work for her, but that is why I am there. I like to see the business that people are trying to start. If I haven't already said it, I work in the Small Business Office on campus. Well and the Continuing Education office, but I don't do anything with that. My job is to help my boss with clients starting new businesses or getting help with their current business. I do most typical office help work (ie: filing, copying, etc) but my favorite part is getting the industry material together because more often than not I end up reading through it myself. Lots of interesting stuff!

Ayden and I did take our little drive today to find the apartments I was talking about earlier and we found them. Only a ten minute drive to them from daycare (just a bit longer than that we drive now) so that isn't too bad. It's a smaller complex than we are at now and the apartments are either duplexes or fourplexes. I didn't get that close of a look. Some look newer than others and those ones look really nice (definitely more like a house than we live in now) and others look a little older than I would like to live in. But I guess it would depend on the inside. It's not on a super busy road and does have this awesome side walk for walking/biking/etc (one thing that is lacking where we live now, despite the fact that we have a sidewalk around the building and a driveway-of which I don't let Ayden bike in because I am too scared about all the cars driving around). I kind of wanted to take Jay past them tonight, but I figured he would be too tired so I will mention it tomorrow before soccer. And all of this even before we know if they have any available to rent and/or when we could move out of our current place.

The thing is, when our lease ran up this past year (it was a one year lease) the landlords notified us of an increase in rent, however we did not sign a new lease. Does that techinally mean we can move out at any time as long as we give however long before notice that is require (which I believe is either 45 or 60 days)? I don't know... Getting way ahead of myself here. Changes may be brewing? Who know?

CIAO! LOVE ME!