Time Flies…

I was laying (is it is lying? I never know which is grammatically correct, oh well) in bed the other night thinking about how fast the hours go by each day. I know, the best thoughts always come to me right before I end up falling asleep. That is when I spent my time stressing about things when I can't just drift off to dream land like I want to. Lately, though, I've been falling asleep rather quickly. So, I was thinking about how fast the time flies. I mean, some days it feels like I just got up and already we are headed to bed. Where do the hours go that I am awake? What do  I really spend my time on during the day? Is it something important, or am I wasting the hours I was given that day?

Our days are numbered... I may not know what number I was 'given', but that's okay with me. I know I won't live forever here on earth. And as much as I might like to live to a very old age, it just might not happen. But I did realize that I want to live the time I do have in a meaningful way. Or at least as meaningful as I can. I'm not perfect, I don't pretend to be perfect, I have my bad days, good days, depressing days, happy days. I have my active days, lazy days, etc etc etc. But I want to make sure that whenever my time comes that I leave knowing that I lived a good life.

Sometimes I get to the end of the day and feel like it slipped away from me without me even knowing. I really want to enjoy these summer months with Ayden because I know they are coming to an end rather quickly, but I don't always feel like I am being the mom I can be at the end of the day. I've tried to cut back on the amount of time I am on the computer each afternoon or that I'm reading. And it's worked to a certain extent. Ayden and I've been going for bike rides. He's getting really good on the two-wheeler! He used to not want to go on bike rides because he wasn't as sure of himself yet, but now that he's doing really well, he likes them! We've gone swimming a few times, to the park, played outside.

Super exciting news!!! Well, maybe not for you, but for me! I was all resigned to not seeing Eclipse (the new Twilight movie) until next week because my schedule is so busy at the end of this week. That was until I realized that I had the release time all wrong. It comes out at midnight tonight, well technically 12:01am tomorrow morning. You know what that means?! I can go tomorrow night to see it! Hopefully anyways... I think I might have to stop in and see if they have reserve tickets for any other times than the opening one because if so, then I'm sure they are sold out as well. The showing that I want to go to is at 6:30pm (they have a 12:30 and 3:30 one as well, but I have no babysitter to watch Ayden during those times). I plan to go about 45 minutes to an hour early to make sure I can get in and get a seat. I am going to bring a book along to read during that time to keep myself busy. I am about halfway through Breaking Dawn (the last Twilight book), and this is the fourth time that I am reading it and it is still just as good. Yes, I know, I’m crazy, lol!

I am SO ready for this week to be over with, well at least thru Thursday night. Tonight we had our weekly chat session at my friend’s house for our online class. On my drive home I almost hit a deer. It was pretty close, but didn’t send my heart pumping. Funny, because as close as it was, it probably should have. But I wasn’t going very fast and it was light out so I saw it as it started to cross the road and hit my brakes. Now just need to come up with some more questions as the discussion leader for next weeks class, need to come up with some questions for our project interview, need to start my article review, and need to take a quiz. And then clinic all day Thursday. Yes, I am complaining about it. I don’t know why I thought having clinic all day would be easier than twice a week for the rotating slot. Oh well… I’ll just be glad when we finally leave the house Thursday night and head ‘home’, only now because of my recent almost deer crash, I’m going to be paranoid looking for them the whole drive home. Speaking of deer, on our drive back from my friend’s house last Friday night, Ayden and I saw nine deer on the drive. Thankfully none were in our path on the road and only one eating next to the road, but still! In a forty mile drive… NINE deer! I think that is a lot! Ugh, I hate dark summer driving in the dark!

Okay, I started this out all serious and it ended up all random, but isn’t that the theme of the majority of my posts. I just write… anything and everything that comes to mind (well almost anything and everything).

Oohh oohh oohh and guess what else?! I’ve given up soda! I’ve gone two days without a soda! Maybe not a big deal to a lot of people, but I’m a soda a day person and so to stop is a big thing. I would like to lose a few pounds, but without any heavy dieting (is that possible?). So, I thought I’d start out by cutting out soda and slowing down on the snacks. Being home most afternoons has definitely increased my snacking and it got a bit over board. I wanted to cut out all snacks together, but I’m not that strong yet, so I’m just having one a day now versus like the three or four I was having. You know… two candy bars and a bowl of ice cream really aren’t all that good for you, lol! Today I had a few chocolate chips. Wish me luck because I don’t have very good will power, but I’m really hoping to at least stick to the no soda thing and try and drink more water!

CIAO! LOVE ME!