{woe is me kind of day}

What should have been a good day at clinic was a ‘woe is me’ kind of day at home. My lovely day of being at home was prefaced by a 2:30am wake-up call from little man. I was already sleeping like crap last night, so I suppose that having him come wake me up at 2:30am was better last night than tonight, right?!

Ayden was complaining about his ear hurting. Okay, so he was more than complaining, he was in tears about his ear. My child does not cry about much, so I know when he comes into my room at night, it’s for a darn good reason. (I’ve also instilled it into his head that if he EVER needs anything at night that he is NOT to be afraid of waking mommy or daddy up.) I remember being young and not feeling good and always being afraid to wake my parents up. Why I was ever afraid is beyond me, but that is neither here nor there. So Ayden is very good about letting me know when he doesn’t feel just right. And last night was one of those nights.

Unfortunately, we were out of any children’s pain medication at our house and I really didn’t think a little ear pain qualified for a run to the 24 hour Walmart with my seven year old at that hour. On and off for the next couple of hours I spent rubbing Ayden’s back and cuddling with him in my bed trying to get him to go back to sleep. I even went so far as to let him watch a little bit of TV to try and distract him from his ear, hoping he would fall back asleep that way. No go. We both ended up falling back to sleep somewhere between 4:30 and 5:00am. I had pretty much decided in the wee hours of the morning that I wasn’t going to clinic and Ayden would be staying home with me the coming day.

At 5:45am when my alarm clock went off, I woke Ayden up to see how his ear was feeling. I figured that at that point if it was still really bad, we would make a trip into Urgent Care. The last thing I wanted was for his ear drum to rupture from an infection. He groggily told me that it only kind of hurt. So, I sent off an email to my supervisor letting him know I wasn’t coming in and crawled back into bed. At 7:30am, I woke up, called Ayden’s school, called the YMCA, and called the doctor. We were able to get a morning appointment to be seen by the doc.

Turns out, little man does have an ear infection, per say… there is no fluid behind the ear drum which is great, but the doctor did say that his ear drum was really red. (Times like last night where I wish I had an otoscope of my own at home to look into Ayden’s ear… possibly a birthday present this year or Christmas present?!) The doctor proceeded to check out Ayden’s nose and throat. Ayden has been a little congested and has had a slight cough for the last few weeks. Guess what? Seasonal allergies. Ugh! The congestion in his nose is dripping down his throat causing the cough. And just like the allergies are causing a slightly red throat, slightly red eyes, they also played a part in the painful ear ache. So, Ayden was prescribed some allergy medication and some ear drops to help with the ear pain. Fun morning, eh?!

After we got home from the doctor, a quick run to the grocery store, and a pharmacy run, Ayden and I relaxed for the rest of the day. He was feeling back to normal by early afternoon.

I think part of my funk for today was brought on by some guilt at not being at clinic when I should have been. But, being a parent ALWAYS comes first in my book and when you are pulling the single parent role, there is no one else that can take your place. Then there was a stupid email that a professor sent out about some homework assignment. This professor has just been getting on my nerves all semester and I cannot wait until these next two weeks are over. On top of that, I’ve been trying to work on capstone stuff, my mom’s Mother’s Day gift, studying for the Praxis. It is the same old stuff over and over again, it just got to me today. Oh, and maybe the lack of sleep from last night too!

So, what did I do?! I got my butt up, worked out for an hour, soaked up some sunshine with little man, and then we made a no bake peanut butter pie for tomorrow night. Let me tell you, both of us cannot wait to dig into that pie! We are going to visit my cousin and his wife who live about an hour away tomorrow night for supper and Ayden and I are bringing dessert. You know what else added to my uplifted mood tonight… a heaping spoonful of Nutella! Seriously, have you ever tried that stuff?! Delicious and oh so bad for you, haha! But before that, I gorged myself on a gigantic bowl of noodles and alfredo sauce. I just couldn’t eat healthy tonight, I needed some pasta to uplift my mood. And besides, one big bowl of pasta isn’t going to undo all of the hard work I have been doing in the last almost three months. I needed to satisfy that craving and tonight was a good night to do it. (Tomorrow might have been a better choice because of the yummy pie we made, however, I did use all low fat or fat free ingredients so it should be a teeny tiny bit healthier than it would have been otherwise.)

I always tell myself, tomorrow is another day… one day closer to the end of the week and if I can make it through the dreaded class tomorrow, the week will end good, haha! I am looking forward to clinic on Thursday, I like clinic. Class tomorrow… not so much.

CIAO! LOVE ME!